One of my best friends died last night. I cannot believe it. I have spent a good portion of the day in disbelief, crying, listening to the Cure, emailing people, calling people, and wondering what I need to do to get through this week. It's weird how time sometimes tries to steal communication between people. I was not big on calling, and neither was he. But, that didn't mean shit. I could call him once a year and it would be like we had talked to each other yesterday. I miss him alot. I wish I had a chance to say goodbye one more time, and tell him that I love him. He was my brother, my friend, and my hero (at times). I have been around so many grieving families and been a part of more funerals than I ever bargained for, and I tell you, death can be difficult to comprehend. It sucks! I don't want to feel this hollow. I guess I am tired and empty of emotion right now. God...surround my friends....surround Bram's family...surround me.